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long thought.
har har. saw this lame photo of Wang Zheng Hao... hwahwa...Hmm... like v long nv see that guy le, wonder where he went? Or maybe i'm juz kinda blind la.
Hmmm... feel a bit better now that i've sub the work to another com. But i still feel bad. Maybe the teacher has brainwashed me over the phone to make me think it's my fault. ya. I noe you guys say its not my fault, but the way u sae it ar... it's like blaming me anyway. urh. not that any of you all will be reading this la, cuz i din tell any of u abt this. But in case. Oh, and our darlink seniors Marcus and Andy will be reading this after battling with the horribly evil A levels. Snapping outta the relationship warp thingy. I'm gonna just be happy i can sleep with happy dreams. Had a nice dream this morning, one in a LOOOONG time. It wasn a complicated dream, just a dream where i had a long talk with someone i really wish i could have a long talk with. In the dream i had all the time in the world to meet up with pple and eat and chat and just have fun as a group, or individually. So i din wanna wake up until 1pm! And no choice than, cuz i have B.O.D meeting at 2pm. har. In the end i was still early eh! And met WanYi on the bus, cuz she have econs paper in the afternoon. Today also bought my gifts for the China pple... so last min hor? I bought our college files for them and i bought 3 college pins just in case got pple no prezzies. Sigh. i hope i really can go for my trip in peace and don hafta worry abt stuff in S'pore. It would be awful if my mind stays here and i have to keep calling back to S'pore to settle stuff etc. Just got scolded again from the teacher a few mins ago... sigh... been getting scolding from her the whole entire day. And somemore its HER fault!!!! ugh. it feels terrible to be a student sometime and if the teacher says its your fault, it's your fault! See, see how i wan to look forward to my trip also cannot? You know on my date of departure i still have to settle stuff with my B.O.D member who is meeting me at the departure hall that morning sixthirty? Now i understand what Nuriahtu, my senior told me abt my job. To pple who think the 12 of us are very free... har har har. Life is so hectic in the B.O.D u cant breathe. And when you finally can... you forgot how to. That's how it is. Life is seriously depressing lately. And i know what Andy mean by you need frenz in the B.O.D to survive. hah. i still don't you see... which is why i'm not exactly surviving. I miss everybody. I miss talking long hours to pple on the phone where i can just pour out all my troubles. I don have that kinda time nowadays, and neither do anybody else anyway. And those that do, they just cant be bothered and don care for idle chat. These pple only bother when your house burn down or something. Unless there is something impt, no point wasting time talking is the policy for these lovely frenz of mine. haha，电话粥. Now i don have time to cook myself 粥 of any kind lor. Everyone is so busy. Pple just rush past you and you can sometimes feel the wind from the speed they are moving at. When you get lost, you can't ask for directions because no one will stop for your sake. Their faces are a blur, and forget about admiring the finer things in life, you cant even get the big picture right. You just move and move and move and move. and move. Your focus shifts. Your priorities are lost since everything seems so impt! But of cuz they are not.. only you have no time to realise that. Sigh. Now i know why i enjoyed the dream this morning so much. Because i could talk properly to someone. We were in a nice comfy room where we could talk about everything under the sun. It was someone i trust the most among all my friends, thus i could just tell the person EVERYTHING. It feels good to have someone to share with. And the best part was, i wasn the one doing all the talking. The person talked too. It was communication at last, no longer 1-way but 2-way. See how such a simple thing could make me so happy? If only it can happen in real life... nah. that's just a dream, in reality the person wont be so nice as to meet up with me just to talk. The person probably doesn care enuf to do that. argh. nvm. i'm sinking back into the depressed mood i had almost gotten myself out of. can the person ever make my dream come true and cheer me up? Joyce at 11:24 PM
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